The Wretchedness of... me

Now that people stopped looking here, I can actually share my life in more personal =P... So if you happen to see this, then blessed(?) are you =P..

It's been a while since I came back to serve God whole-heartedly...But recently, I believe the Spirit led me and lit my spiritual fire again...~ Amazingly... XD..

I saw the movie Cinderella Man today .... haha ... an old movie... Cried XD..~ But it reminded me of my dad and how our family used to be after the divorce...~
My dad would need to work sooooooo hard just to earn sooooo few... and how much he cried for the fear of being unable to care for us~~ (While I'm writing this, by no manner have I mentioned that my mother went thru an easy time, she had her moments as well)...

So I just told God, I remembered...
I remembered how Faithful is He...
When we do not have enuf money, He provides Faithfully...
When we thought we could not move on, He allows us too....~
He never failed on us... And still today...

Starting from my second semester in UCSI,
life was tough... Due to many rubbish that went on... And God sealed my lips so that I would not defend myself on accusation (although I do not yet understand)... And I pretty backslided so much because of anger and unforgiveness...

But God was Faithful... =)

I always find it unanswerable whenever I asked Him, 'Why do You still care for me?'...even when I've done so much...

And throughout 1 year plus in my uni~ though there are accusation, He walked me through =) Providing companionship from great friends =) ( You will be shocked that God sent me a good friend of mine who loves Metal music...YES!!! hhahaha... But He is Faithful...).. =)
And I find myself being unworthy but still loved as though I have saved the world =D metaphorically =P...

But I found rest in Him and I found hope in Him..
Although words may come... I trust Him for who He is..

Because He never fails.... =D

I understand that the most central thing in the Faith is not how right I am (perhaps why God shut my lips so that ppl would misunderstood me) in the sight of ppl or even to my own perception of myself...
The central component of Faith is perhaps the intimate relationship I have with God, My Father... which I can never understand why He loved me so much =D....

But I am learning .... and growing...~

Oh...Wretched I am..... But Greater is He who lives in me~ ! =D